Self-Control is a Dirty Word!

So I'm watching TV and see a commercial for something called a "Treadclimber".  It's a treadmill, stair stepper and elliptical machine all in one.  I think I need to order one ASAP!  But, then, when would I have time to get on it?  I'm lucky I have time to shower and pee!  No joke!  I have let my work take over my life.  I am going to start requesting more time off.  This week I will have worked about 51+ hours by Sunday.  I'll have nice paychecks, but what am I sacrificing?  My health and sanity.

I really need to start exercising religiously.  I have tried taking every kind of weight loss product know to man, but I know that without exercise, I'm never going to lose weight.  It's very frustrating.  When I got married I was a size 5 and weighed about 120 lbs.  Then the weight just kept coming on and on.  I lost weight about 8 years ago, but it came right back on.  It's so easy when you think about it, you just have to eat right and exercise.  But, why can't I do it?  Why is it so difficult?  I have no self control!  I keep thinking that as soon as my life settles down again I will do it.  Hopefully that is soon!  Once I start exercising it can be addictive.  One time I was exercising like 3 times a day.  I was addicted.  I had it in my brain that if I stopped I would gain it the weight back.  I wish that the addiction would have continued!

I look at skinny women and think "Were they born like that or were they once fat?"  Most of them I know where born like that and stayed like that.  They were blessed with a super high metabolism!  I wish I had one of those!  Some people stop eating or get poor appetites when they are stressed.  I eat everything in site!  I am a very emotional eater and boy do I have some emotions!  Food makes me happy in times of trouble!  There a reason why they call it "comfort food"!  Just saying that I am craving potatoes and gravy!  lol!

I really want to do it and hope that someday I will.  Hopefully it will be before my daughter is a senior, which is next year.  I don't want to be the super fat mom walking my daughter on the basketball court for Parent's Night.  Why do we always care what others think?  The last time I lost all the weight was for one of my high school class reunions.  I really didn't want to be the fat girl there.  As soon as it was over, I went back to my bad habits and within 6 months, the weight was back on.

I work at a health supplement store where we sell diet pills.  I hate to say this, but diet pills are a waste of money.  All they are is high levels of caffeine.  I've tried them all and I only lost weight on one.  But, after time, that one didn't even work.  My body adjusted to it. I guess my advice is don't waste your money.  There is only one way to lose weight and that is through food control and exercise.  I still want that treadclimber! :)