February 20th, 2011

Stress.  I could make a list of things that stress me out.  I don't deal with stress very well.  I tend to drink wine when I get stressed out.  It does the trick to unwind me.  Some people exercise, I drink wine.  Oh, well.  I should be in the wine of the week club. lol!  I also watch a lot of reality tv and movies.  I dont' know why, but watching someone else have problems makes me feel better I guess.

I am still working 3 jobs.  That is a stress in itself.  I continue to look for a full-time job.  I continue to send out applications and resumes.  I continue to pray to God to give me a break.  It's just a very tough job market right now and we live in such a small town.  It's so unfair in this town.  There are two jobs that I had, one at a local hospital and one at an appliance warranty company, where the companies won't rehire me because they think that I didn't give two weeks notice, but I did.  The one job at the home warranty company I continued to work at while also starting my new job of opening a physician's office from start up.  How can these people forget these things or document them incorrectly?  I also gave two weeks notice at the hospital also.  My sister worked at the local hospital also and they won't hire her back either.  Nice, huh? Every job I left I gave notice and left on good terms, or so I thought.



Occasionally having two teenagers can be a little stressful.  A lot of drama with relationships with friends and boyfriends and girlfriends.  I understand that kids change as they grow.  My husband, however, does not understand this.  He expects the kids to be in the "in" crowd because he was.  It's very frustrating for both of us.  Both of my kids were in the "in" crowd and grew out of it, which I am fine with.  When I was in high school I could have been in the "in" crowd, but they all drank and I didn't want to.  I found my own group of misfits to be with.  I was happy.  I wouldn't say I wasn't popular though.  I was a cheerleader and very active in school musicals etc.  I was friends with everyone.  My husband was like Mr. Class President and Mr. Football Captain, whose house all the kids hung out at.  I just let the kids make their own decisions and choices, within limits as long as they are safe.  I don't push them to be what they are not.  It's sort of like pushing a kid into an occupation they don't want to do.  Live and let live is my motto.  Breathe and let breathe.

A huge issue of my stress is about to come to an end soon.  I'm finally going to settle the car accident I was in.  I have a meeting with their insurance guy in about 2 weeks.  I hoping things turn out in my favor, which they should because it was the other guy's fault totally.  He got a ticket.  I'll be so glad when that who thing is done finally.  It's been a year on March 11th.

I think life is too short to be stressed over things.  I don't worry anymore because when I did, it didn't help, just gave me ulcers.  We are in a much better place than we were 2 years ago.  We have gone through some tough times.  I am so ready for life to be simpler and more enjoyable.  Throw the stress out the window and don't let it back in!  I think I need to tan, get a massage or have acupuncture, something really relaxing.