Am I a Hoarder?

Fall has arrived and it is time to dig out the fall/winter clothes.  The problem is that I have garbage bag upon garbage bag full of clothes down my basement.  There are so many that I don't know where to start!  There are winter clothes that don't fit me.  There are summer clothes that don't fit me.  There are winter clothes that do fit me.  And there are summer clothes that do fit me.  Besides all these, there are kids clothes down there too.  The only one who doesn't have clothes down there is my husband, who has all his clothes in our bedroom.

Why do I insist on keeping clothes that don't fit me?  I always hope to lose weight and fit into them again.  I have lost major weight a couple of times since being married.  I go from a very large size, not going to say what size, down to a tiny size.  Losing about 20 to 50 pounds each time.  I also am one who puts a small size of jeans hanging on my closet door as an incentive to lose weight.

What is my problem with weight?  I am an emotional eater.  I think I am better at it now.  I have been on some medication for about a year now that has helped.  I don't workout a whole lot.  Right now for my jobs I stand all day, so I don't feel like working out before or after work.  I really want to lose weight though.  My daughter will be a senior next year and I don't want to be the fat mom at Parent's Night walking Elle onto the basketball court.  I inherited very large hips from the dad's mom.  I got these hips in about 5th or 6th grade.  I have two sisters who also inherited these hips.  All three of us are pretty over weight.  My mom is 72 years old now and is an exercise freak and has lost weight down to a size 8 or so.  She is retired and has a lot of "me" time to do this.  When I do work out regularly I do become addicted to it.  One time I was so addicted that I would workout three times a day.  This is when I had a regular 8-5 desk job.  I have never been one to get up in the morning and exercise.  I wish I was!  When I do work out it is either late in the afternoon or at like 9:00 pm at night.

Anyway, getting back to the hoarding.  I am the type of person who doesn't like to throw anything away.  I guess I didn't have a lot growing up, so I don't like to get rid of anything.  I don't know if is healthy having all these clothes around.  The last time I lost weight I tried to get rid of all my fat clothes, hoping I would never need them again.  My husband gets very upset with me because I have all these bags laying around taking up space.  I have started going through them and have sorted out a few things that are no longer in style or can't believe I actually wore!  I know I will feel so much better when it is all sorted out and I have given it to the used clothing store as a charitable donation.  Our local used clothing store is ran by a home for disable people and all the money they make goes to it.  The problem usually is that I sort it all out and then I don't take to the store, it just gets mixed back up with everything else.

I'm going to do it though!  I'm going to sort it all out and get rid of it!  And then I'm going to lose weight and get rid of some more of it and buy new smaller clothes!  My goal is to get down to a very small size jean and buy those jeans with the studded rhinestone crosses on the butt.  I have seen these in the stores and they cost about $90 to $120.  Once I get down there and purchase these, there is no way I'm going to go back to the other, bigger jeans!  I know I can do it because I've done it twice before.  When I do do it, people always ask me if I'm sick.  They think I've lost so much weight because I have an illness!  It's kind of comical actually!  Below is a photo of the jeans I'm going to get into!  Wish me luck!  Maybe I should just wire my jaw shut!  I'd like to get liposuction and a tummy tuck!  I wonder if there is a plastic surgeon who would do this for free!  Dream on!