Sick

Why does the change of seasons from summer to fall always causes cold symptoms?  I feel like crap!  My throat is sore, I have drainage down the back of it.  Stuffy head.  I feel like shit!  I might as well as stayed in bed today.  I was suppose to work in the deli today.  Who would want someone as sick as me breathing on their meat or dips?   Not me!

I feel like I'm playing hooky.  I've been sitting in the recliner all day watching movies and tv.  Maybe this is what I needed though, what my body needs.  Sometimes when we don't know when to slow down, God makes us slow down.  I'm sure I'm just worn out from working three jobs and being stressed out from interviewing for full-time jobs that I didn't get.  I am hoping that God is good to me and makes me well and leads me to the job that is for me.  I believe in destiny, fate.  Maybe the job for me is one where there is still someone in that position.  It's a waiting game.  I don't like that game.  Don't want to play anymore.  I had a really good interview a week ago yesterday and never head from the employer.  It was between me and one other girl, out of 50 who applied!  You would think they would have called both of us.  I keep hoping that they just haven't gotten around to calling yet, maybe.  I know I need to call them.  I just don't want to hear that I didn't get the job.  I dread hearing it.

I need to hear something positive!  I need a spark of hope!  The darkness if closing in on me again!  That is a really bad feeling!  I really need some light at the end of the really dark tunnel that I have been in for over a year now!