I cannot believe that in less than a month Elle will be off to college for her second year at Northwestern. Wow, time is flying! Elle is going to be a part of their cross country team this year and will start training with them next month. She can get a scholarship for it if her time is good enough during time trials. She hasn't participated in cross country before, just track.
Soon Dalton will be back in school for his junior year of high school! OMG! This is unbelievable! He will be playing on the football team again. We are hoping that he finds a spot on varsity. He is very talented in all sports across the board. Basketball will always be his #1 though. The July weather has been very unbearably hot. It will feel great when the fall weather finally arrives and football games.
Jeff will find out in September if he will lose his job with Sara Lee due to their revamping because of the Bimbo Company buying them out. We are hoping for the best, of course. I am still at Media Solutions selling advertising for the Smart Shopper and doing billing for it as well. I like my job. I don't go in until 9:00 am and I work independently. I get a long with all of my co-workers. I love life with no conflicts. I don't handle stress well at all.
I know I need to make some changes in my life. I am on a road to destruction with my diet and lack of exercise. It is my addictive behavior. Too bad I can't be addicted to exercise! I have been before, and probably can be again! I wish my addictions did good things instead of bad! Would that be awesome? Too bad it doesn't work that way! I come home from work, cook supper, and then sit in a recliner for the rest of the night.
I look at women who work out and are in great shape, and I am so jealous! I want to be addicted to exercise and healthy eating! Why can't it be me? My dream is to lose the weight and be able to wear cute things again. I cannot tell you the last time I wore shorts in public. It has been at least 5 or 6 years ago. It was the year we went to San Antonio as a family. When Kirk and Melissa got married, I think. So, maybe it has been longer than what I think! Kirk and Melissa have been married 11 years! OMG!
Why does weight have to be a roller coaster ride? I get down to a certain size that I love, and a few years later I'm back to where I started again! I am a very emotional eater. This I know. I am very emotional period! Sometimes I think I need either a medication adjustment or an attitude adjustment! Or maybe both! I have no will power and no motivation to move! Maybe I need someone to shock me in the ass like they do pigs! (Not that I think that is humane for me or pigs!)
Tomorrow is Jeff's 47th birthday. It's hard to believe that I am 45 and he is 47! His mom's birthday was yesterday. She has been gone for seven months now, since January. My mom will be 74 in November. Elle will be 20 in September and Dalton will be 17 in November. It makes me remember how precious time really is and that we need to enjoy every minute of it!
My goal for next week is to go and join a gym that I could have been a free member of for over 2 years now. Stupid that I haven't! Hopefully it's not too late! Another goal is to try to handle stress in an alternative way other than eating. I need to start meditating and doing yoga stretches again. I need to start taking care of myself! I need to make a commitment and promise to myself to do these things for my health. I live in a house filled with exercise junkies, you would think that it would rub off sooner than later, right?
